I abhor liars

Have you ever met a habitual liar? What is it with lies, liars and lying?? I wonder...As in someone who constantly lies about everything and finally gets caught each time they lie? What do people want to prove by lying? That they are good and nice? What when they get caught? What happens to their image then? Do they have any clue that their so called "pseudo image" that they have created vanishes to thin air? I always wonder... And damn, it's so easy to find out if someone is lying. It is not only shameful on their part but insulting to us as well. Because they think we are stupid enough to actually believe them. That really pisses me off. And more over, they just take us for granted!! In just tat case, I either wanna strangle them or myself, just to make them stop. I could just do anything to get away from them.
Or wait.. Hold on. Is it a problem with their mental makeup? The way they are wired? Or is it a disease that they wanna die with? What kind of upbringing could they possibly have. I can't figure. It's annoying, anyways! Have u eva encountered people like tat?

Tip tip barsaa paani...

Light drizzles, cloudy skies, low temperature and strong winds!! Signs of active monsoon.
I am soooooo loving it!!
Rain is definitely one thing that can make my day and lets me forget everything!
Get a clue people. If you have had a rough time with me or you see me in a bad mood, pray to Varuna, the God of Rain! [wink]

Happy happy or sad happy?

I have always felt that everyone has a right to be sad, depressed and unhappy as equally as they are entitled to be happy! And nobody has a right to judge a person by it either. Well, not that one has to necessarily be sad or so but my philosophy is that no one should be embarrassed coz they are sad or depressed! I am the last person to powder its nose and act rosy-rosy!

While I was so thinking about it, a weird thought played heavily on my mind as I rode back. Here is a question to you:
Have you ever been compelled to be happy?
Have you been in a situation where you have absolutely no choice but to be happy? In spite of all the odds?

I am sure you are thinking what happened to me and if I am harebrained. I sense that it’s quite insane to be thinking so but just wondered if anyone had been….

Allez, Fed!

The cool, windy weather and of course the occasional rain showered their choisest blessings on 'The God of Tennis' as he threw his hands to the sky in triumph, winning his 14th major grand slam title and his first Roland Garros title.

He did it, finally! What a moment in history and what a treat to all his devotees!
Thanks Fed. Keep it going. You simply ROCK!

The date!

12th May 2009
156 KS

Let go

Try this. Take a deeeep breath. Hold on. Hold. Hold. Hold. Hold. Hold. Hold. Hold. Hold. You have already begun to suffocate, am sure. Now exhale and let go. Didn’t you actually get back more air than you did inhale? Isn’t that so relieving and refreshing?

Pretty much so, if you want something in life then learn to “let go”. Don’t hold or cling on to things. It will only strangulate you. You’ll only get back in abundance what you let go. It is just about “movement”!

Think about this beautiful funda: "The principle of living life to the fullest is to get attached by being detached". Simple, innit? Give it a thought.

Fly or die...

What if a bird said, "I am acrophobic"????!!!!!

All the while travelling...

I see myself in a labyrinth. Unable to find a way out, running in circles, not knowing which course to take.
Confused and flummoxed, I run down!
With a labyrinth, there is only one choice to be made - to enter or not. Whether or not to walk!
But a choice has been made. I have put my step forward and I am in!
Is it a maze? Is there a way out? Am i trapped? Did I take the right course?
I stand motionless, seeing no where to go.
I hear a voice scream, "No, U ll neva be stuck". Yes, indeed. I know I can find a way out.
There are twists, turns, and blind alleys. Yet, it is unicursal.
I realize, the importance of leaving a mark.
The trail winds in and out for the way in is the way out.
To escape from the labyrinth, you gotta search within and trace the mark.
But am afraid. Will someone change the mark? Leaving me where I am and having no chance to get out?
No, the unknown is known now. Every small step taken with fear, every gasp while I ran, every drop of sweat that got me in here will actually guide me back!

Slow it down a bit...

Everything seems plain and earthly. There is sunshine and its turning all green. Its a good feeling and I am liking it this way. I want it slow, as slow as possible. I wish I could stop the time from rolling! Can we have everything run in slow motion, please? I wanna pause, rewind and replay.

Why are you hurrying? Don't rush pass me so quickly. Just allow me to live in the moment... and this moment… For ever!

Am I heard?

By-Two Coffee - A dedication to G! :P

‘G’ (privacy requested by the person!! :P:P:P), my friend, had called me on the eve of Valentine’s Day and said she was missing India badly. She was saying that the zeal of celebrating Valentine’s Day isn’t the same as in India and its quite dry there. And she is dying to be here in India. But I explained to her that things ain’t the same here anymore!!Oh between, she is newly wed and is now settled in Connecticut, USA.
She asked me to put up a post on what my idea of feeling the vibe of that day would be, especially in Bangalore!

Okay so, here I have it for you G. Now I don’t really know how much you’ll appreciate this but I being I, see what I have on my mind.

Picture this.

You and him (/her) are ripping along on your kiney( or jus any bike). Suddenly, in classic Bangalore style, the clouds choose to culminate and burst and come pouring down on you. You take refuge by rushing into a near by Darshini. Half drenched and shivering, you order a hot cup of filter coffee and decide to share it -a by-two coffee-while you wait for the rain to stop! As you sip your half cup of steaming coffee you look into your partner's eyes and think to urself "how amazing is this?". And just go ahead and profess your love for him(/her).

God, G, I can see you all ready with rotten tomatoes and eggs to pelt me!! I am running for cover. Bachhaaaaaooo....... Saaaaaaaaaaaavvvve meeeeeeeee…………..

Seriously, coffee is a drink that makes you lose your senses for a while and say WOW ! Okay I know.. We are talking about love - Loving to share. So why not do it with coffee? It’s the best way to show how to love, share and appreciate it. Coffee is not just a normal drink but its about fantasy, escape and passion.

Well, on behalf of every Bangalorean who's ever been in this situation, I'd like to tell you, "It's pretty damn amazing. Simply enjoy maadi!"

Okay G, this post is dedicated to you!!LOL. I can’t stop laughing!! Listen, I can’t help it. I just can’t get enough of rain and coffee. If you are bugged with it, please excuse me!! ;)

Probe the problem

Alright.. I have a task for u..Ask me a question which involves me to choose... Go ahead... just anything that you want me to decide upon. Okay, wait! Before I take your question, I have an open statement. There is a good chance of me not giving an answer. I might always refuse to answer. I would be like, " Err... hmmm... but... well... aaahhh.. Ughhh??.. and..what if.. if not.. else.. so on and so forth". I stumble to choose among a set of alternatives in light of their possible consequences. Blame it on the frontal lobe of my brain. My mind often goes into an infinite loop, processing the conditional statements.

Most often, when faced with such a thing, we go by intuition, which might or might not be the right thing to do. We sometimes tend to think straight from the head but sometimes from the heart. Now, when should we put our head ahead of the heart and when should we put the heart ahead of our head is a serious question!! And as a result of this serious problem of indecisiveness we tend to fail and err. Acceptable (or is it not?), totally! And there are good chances that people label (which they are doing best at), as biased. And when things don't go according to the decision made we blame it on our good old 'DESTINY'. We say it was a mistake! The most difficult thing to do in life is "TO CHOOSE". A choice can make all the difference. A protracted decision is only one part of the process of choosing. We make decisions in the fear of making the wrong decisions and there we trip and fail. Its an unusual phobia, do you see that?!!

Anyways, do our mistakes matter at all? Okay, okay... We are humans and are fallible. Agreed! And failure is the stepping stone to success! Innit?? The measure of success is not whether you have a tough decision to deal with, but whether it's the same decision you had before. A good old proverb says, "Decide like a man of action; implement like a man of thought". It does not take much strength to decide what to do, but it requires great strength to do things.

Now we could argue that if a mistake does not lead to a failure, then it is not of any importance - we may not even know we've made an error. Our fallibility is compounded when we lack experience, don't have the right information, misunderstand, or if we are careless, tired or under time pressure. All these factors affect our ability to make sensible decisions - our brains either don't have the information or cannot process it quickly enough. Additionally, we are more likely to make errors when dealing wit perplexing problems and complex processes. It could be anything -personal or technical or even business related. This is coz, I think, our brains are wired to deal wit a reasonable amount of complexity or change. When asked to deal wit more our brains may not process the information we have correctly. Well, am not making it a general statement. It could be otherwise and I shall not be surprised. But at least MY MIND CANNOT TAKE IT!! So, is it okay to fail? Or is there a compulsion to succeed?

QLC

A lil bit of excitement, a lil bit of nervousness. A lil bit of this and that. A lil bit of just everything. In fact lots! Well you must be wondering what’s wrong with me to be writing like this and about what. Oh well, last week(last month) I happened to celebrate my ‘silver jubilee’ birthday! Oh o…. if you are smart and have got to know my age, then please don’t be smart to declare it to everyone.. Ssssssshhhhhh.. it’s meant to be a secret and am just 18 given any day… “18 till I die. Yo!”. Alright? LOL.

I sat down and reminisced about the week that had been. Oh well, so what’s so special about it? I got older. Am not too sure if I think I got old but people certainly do! A day that has come for years. I felt it to be a lil insignificant(blame it on my age!! :P). But I am a lil confused(as always), if am old or I can still continue to be young. But even if I do, people around(God help them! Do something to their memory. Let them forget my age!), have a problem. “Ohhh.. U r 25. So, terms and conditions apply. You SHOULD be doing this and that. Oh, you SHOULDN’T be doin this, you are not a kid anymore”. I hate being said not to do what I want to do! Annoying! Worse time it is for me coz am still single! ‘Ohh, its high time you get married’ (What bloody problem am I causing them by being a spinster uh?)! Irritating. I just cant tend to ignore their snide remarks. Well, its another thing that I look old (I’ ll do something about that. May be learn how to apply make up right or may be get real thin!! Howzzat? Listen up, it needs a bit of an effort. Hence, am praying hard- “God, jus one time phullleeeej.. Make me Kareena-zero-size-kapoor thin!! Just once!!” Hehehe. [wink]).

On the other hand, I end up working late till in the evening. Pressure is mounting up from everywhere. There is some kinda guilt that I haven’t achieved anything in life while most people across the world my age are par beyond excellence and are going places. I have an urge to do something that satisfies me and kills the quest! But am jus way too behind. Lot needs to be done but do I have enough time? I have been nit picking too much insisting on perfection. It’s a miserable feeling.

There is a famous saying, “Wine and women get only better by time”. I am not too sure about the wine part as I don’t drink but women.. hmm… Oh really? I wish… I don’t see any signs.. I am growing to be the silliest kid on the block! (Did I jus say KID?hehehe) . Can I seek help from somewhere? But where? Quarter life crisis!!! I am neck deep in it. It’s hit me hard. And am sure you have guessed that. Smart you! But hope I'm not alone. Tell me, please, that I'm not. But the truth is I spend far too much of my days wondering how I will cope with these crisis moments.
But never the less, it was a day of small joys. It was a pleasant day with no-fuss what so ever. I was on the phone for 25 hours long!!! I quietly liked the attention I got all day. I just let myself be! I just would like to thank all the people who made it the most beautiful day. I hope I can bring you some of this happiness back. I hope I am worth it.

From within.. or Out!

It is the end of life when you break open the egg from outside.
But it is the beginning of a new life when it breaks open from within!

You have a choice!

Going back to books

Of late I have been preparing for some technical certifications which has become a mandatory deportment for survival(of the fittest). The emphasis is on how colorful your profile looks!! Aaaahhh…Well, back to books after a looooooong gap of 4 years. Can someone get what it means to be back to tech books? It’s so easy to go to sleep after reading a technical book. After every line or two I read , I conveniently take off to a fairy land. That apart, I have realized that the memory chip that is installed in my brain is volatile! It needs a fresh reload of data after every restart! Each time I open the book, everything seems so fresh. The feeling is miserable and depressing, I tell you. Ufff… Believe it or not, I have read the introduction to the subject that I am currently going through for about 10 times, on and on. And I have a problem, unless I get a hang of the introduction I cannot continue to read the other chapters!!! Sounds weird? I remembered mamma would always make me write what we read so that it stayed long. So like a good mamma’s child, I have started typing the programs in the listings. It does take long to finish the chapter but it is working!! Just the act of typing in a program seems to help me remember what I have read about it. I decided to get some Dilbert-type exercise – making my fingers humongous! LOL! I jus gotta see how long I will continue to do this.

Coffee: The first peripheral

Some interesting quotes I happened to come across which I strongly concur with!

An English proverb says, “Behind every successful man, is a woman”. And Stephanie Piro says, “Behind every successful woman is a substantial amount of coffee”. Kudos to Stephanie! How witty! :)

And if in case I don't have my cuppa this is what happens to the computer in my brain:
“Caffeine Allocation Error: COFFEE.SYS Not Found: User startup disabled” ;)

I must confess, I’ll die without my daily dose of caffeine. Inexorably addicted! :D:D:D

DRIFT

How many of us are often asked to DRIFT? I mean, DO It Right The First Time! And this is so much so heard all the time in every other meeting at work, re-iterated and re-emphasized! The idea behind DRIFT is that management wants all of the processes that make up the Just in time philosophy to be done correctly and efficiently so that there are no delays in the production process. Now, as I mulled over this, something infinitely worse hit me. How can one be right the first time? How does one know that he is right? Nothing can be right the first time. If it is then it is assumed and asserted to be! If somebody says that something is right and it can be that means he has done it before. If someone has done it before how can it be the first time when I do it? In that case things become simpler when he guides me to do it right when I do it for the first time. Am I making any sense at all?

Hence, one can do it right some time when he has perfected the art to do so. And as we know, practice makes it! Rather, “guided” practice does it. But at the end of it no one is perfect and nothing is perfect. So where are we headed? What are we striving to achieve? One is bound to make mistakes consciously or otherwise. And we all learn from it which leads to the betterment of something that we are currently doing. It’s just that one must not stop trying to do the right thing. And one has to stop considering it a problem! There is no problem so big and so complicated that there is no solution. Even a no solution could be a solution in itself. You just never know until you have tried. Triumph against the overwhelming odds. Just bounce back and achieve what has to be, without worrying about doing it right the “first time”! That is all there is to it. Take time to realize that “PROGRESS” is better than perfection and keep moving. One step above. Each time. Every time. You just have to discipline yourself to work on achieving it. What do you think? Does drifting against DRIFT make any sense at all?

Bits...

... of a travel in the woods.

First showers.
Wet eyes.
cross roads.
Jigsaw puzzle.
A miscellany of odds and ends.
The bridge.
Time of change.
Road less traveled.
Unending journey.

No hardfeelings

26/11/08. Mumbai terror attacks. The worst that happened to India. And the last thing I can do about this is to pay my heartfelt condolences to all those who lost their loved ones. It was gruesome and a heartless act. Such events are a norm in India. Every other attack (inter or intra) only becomes just another attack. And it would soon become history, and people forget them as if it were just another day. But India needed something to this intensity to awaken! Anyways, having said that, how easy is it to forgive the sinner, forget what happened and move on? Anyone who has been victimized has no middle ground to what he decides to do about it. He either decides to forgive or hold on to the anger/grudge/bitterness.

Life is not fair most of the times. Let the situation be what eva. We always ask, why me? Why is life so unfair to me? Many incidents in life teaches us a good lesson but with a price that of pain. Have we ever been thankful for what happened? For awful lot of people it is difficult to forgive. You end up hearing something like “I haven’t been forgiven. Why should I?”. So, with hardened hearts and stiff lips, they say, “I’ll never forgive”. And the sad thing is that in wishing to send someone to hell they end up sending themselves there as well. Trust me, when you are angry, your big mouth can do a lot of irreparable harm and get you to trouble. Doesn’t that hit us hard and let us take some time off to think? According to the law of karma, what goes around will definitely come around.

Develop the attitude of gratitude. The art of forgiving. Well, I understand when I say this that it’s easier to say than do it. True. But you can’t carry the bitterness all your life. In year’s to come, you’ll only turn to be a potful of venom. Now, none of us wanna be that. Sure? Remember, vengeance is not the solution. It neither can heal you. Well forgiveness is not reconciliation. It is a larger process of which forgiveness is but one part. Forgiving does not mean that you have to let then\m go off the hook legally either. But the energy that keeps the grudge will just drain the strength in you.

The beauty of forgiveness lies in giving it even before you are asked for it. So remember that if anyone has ever hurt you, you don’t find forgiveness, you give it. Forgiveness is the act of untying yourself from thoughts and feelings that bind you to the offense committed against you. And it is purely emotional. YOU have to do it and you can’t be forced to do it. And more often than not, ego, self-esteem et al shall raise their hoods and stop you from doing so. But have you ever realized the sense of satisfaction you get when you do forgive? How much you heal yourself and just everyone and everything around you? You free yourself of your greatest burden: hatred. Care less about how much the other person values your attitude of forgiving. Everything comes with a cost. But a word of caution – do not become a person of whom people can take advantage of. It’s often a notion when you smile back at the person who hurt you is that, you are weak. They take you for granted and just do not mind hurting you again, and again, and again. Just be firm and strong. And yet, forgive and forget. And mind you, no ongoing references to the events of the past. Practice to perfect it. At the most you can do when you are hurt is to do nothing at all. It’s only the strong who can forgive and not the weak! To err is human but to forgive is divine. Be willing to be brave. Brave enough for love.

Oscar Wilde quote: “Always forgive your enemies – nothing annoys them most”. How do you like that?

At the end, hold to the thought that you too are human and you can be at the receiving end some day. Standing there, to be forgiven. Jus slip into that moment and think about how you would feel if you are denied forgiveness while you are begging for it heart in heart. And when you are truly sorry about just what eva you did, you can even feel like killing yourself. Would you like to be punished? When you think something is not good for you, it just cannot be good for others either. Right?

A message!

Wishing you all a very happy new year!
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