Probe the problem

Alright.. I have a task for u..Ask me a question which involves me to choose... Go ahead... just anything that you want me to decide upon. Okay, wait! Before I take your question, I have an open statement. There is a good chance of me not giving an answer. I might always refuse to answer. I would be like, " Err... hmmm... but... well... aaahhh.. Ughhh??.. and..what if.. if not.. else.. so on and so forth". I stumble to choose among a set of alternatives in light of their possible consequences. Blame it on the frontal lobe of my brain. My mind often goes into an infinite loop, processing the conditional statements.

Most often, when faced with such a thing, we go by intuition, which might or might not be the right thing to do. We sometimes tend to think straight from the head but sometimes from the heart. Now, when should we put our head ahead of the heart and when should we put the heart ahead of our head is a serious question!! And as a result of this serious problem of indecisiveness we tend to fail and err. Acceptable (or is it not?), totally! And there are good chances that people label (which they are doing best at), as biased. And when things don't go according to the decision made we blame it on our good old 'DESTINY'. We say it was a mistake! The most difficult thing to do in life is "TO CHOOSE". A choice can make all the difference. A protracted decision is only one part of the process of choosing. We make decisions in the fear of making the wrong decisions and there we trip and fail. Its an unusual phobia, do you see that?!!

Anyways, do our mistakes matter at all? Okay, okay... We are humans and are fallible. Agreed! And failure is the stepping stone to success! Innit?? The measure of success is not whether you have a tough decision to deal with, but whether it's the same decision you had before. A good old proverb says, "Decide like a man of action; implement like a man of thought". It does not take much strength to decide what to do, but it requires great strength to do things.

Now we could argue that if a mistake does not lead to a failure, then it is not of any importance - we may not even know we've made an error. Our fallibility is compounded when we lack experience, don't have the right information, misunderstand, or if we are careless, tired or under time pressure. All these factors affect our ability to make sensible decisions - our brains either don't have the information or cannot process it quickly enough. Additionally, we are more likely to make errors when dealing wit perplexing problems and complex processes. It could be anything -personal or technical or even business related. This is coz, I think, our brains are wired to deal wit a reasonable amount of complexity or change. When asked to deal wit more our brains may not process the information we have correctly. Well, am not making it a general statement. It could be otherwise and I shall not be surprised. But at least MY MIND CANNOT TAKE IT!! So, is it okay to fail? Or is there a compulsion to succeed?

QLC

A lil bit of excitement, a lil bit of nervousness. A lil bit of this and that. A lil bit of just everything. In fact lots! Well you must be wondering what’s wrong with me to be writing like this and about what. Oh well, last week(last month) I happened to celebrate my ‘silver jubilee’ birthday! Oh o…. if you are smart and have got to know my age, then please don’t be smart to declare it to everyone.. Ssssssshhhhhh.. it’s meant to be a secret and am just 18 given any day… “18 till I die. Yo!”. Alright? LOL.

I sat down and reminisced about the week that had been. Oh well, so what’s so special about it? I got older. Am not too sure if I think I got old but people certainly do! A day that has come for years. I felt it to be a lil insignificant(blame it on my age!! :P). But I am a lil confused(as always), if am old or I can still continue to be young. But even if I do, people around(God help them! Do something to their memory. Let them forget my age!), have a problem. “Ohhh.. U r 25. So, terms and conditions apply. You SHOULD be doing this and that. Oh, you SHOULDN’T be doin this, you are not a kid anymore”. I hate being said not to do what I want to do! Annoying! Worse time it is for me coz am still single! ‘Ohh, its high time you get married’ (What bloody problem am I causing them by being a spinster uh?)! Irritating. I just cant tend to ignore their snide remarks. Well, its another thing that I look old (I’ ll do something about that. May be learn how to apply make up right or may be get real thin!! Howzzat? Listen up, it needs a bit of an effort. Hence, am praying hard- “God, jus one time phullleeeej.. Make me Kareena-zero-size-kapoor thin!! Just once!!” Hehehe. [wink]).

On the other hand, I end up working late till in the evening. Pressure is mounting up from everywhere. There is some kinda guilt that I haven’t achieved anything in life while most people across the world my age are par beyond excellence and are going places. I have an urge to do something that satisfies me and kills the quest! But am jus way too behind. Lot needs to be done but do I have enough time? I have been nit picking too much insisting on perfection. It’s a miserable feeling.

There is a famous saying, “Wine and women get only better by time”. I am not too sure about the wine part as I don’t drink but women.. hmm… Oh really? I wish… I don’t see any signs.. I am growing to be the silliest kid on the block! (Did I jus say KID?hehehe) . Can I seek help from somewhere? But where? Quarter life crisis!!! I am neck deep in it. It’s hit me hard. And am sure you have guessed that. Smart you! But hope I'm not alone. Tell me, please, that I'm not. But the truth is I spend far too much of my days wondering how I will cope with these crisis moments.
But never the less, it was a day of small joys. It was a pleasant day with no-fuss what so ever. I was on the phone for 25 hours long!!! I quietly liked the attention I got all day. I just let myself be! I just would like to thank all the people who made it the most beautiful day. I hope I can bring you some of this happiness back. I hope I am worth it.

From within.. or Out!

It is the end of life when you break open the egg from outside.
But it is the beginning of a new life when it breaks open from within!

You have a choice!

Going back to books

Of late I have been preparing for some technical certifications which has become a mandatory deportment for survival(of the fittest). The emphasis is on how colorful your profile looks!! Aaaahhh…Well, back to books after a looooooong gap of 4 years. Can someone get what it means to be back to tech books? It’s so easy to go to sleep after reading a technical book. After every line or two I read , I conveniently take off to a fairy land. That apart, I have realized that the memory chip that is installed in my brain is volatile! It needs a fresh reload of data after every restart! Each time I open the book, everything seems so fresh. The feeling is miserable and depressing, I tell you. Ufff… Believe it or not, I have read the introduction to the subject that I am currently going through for about 10 times, on and on. And I have a problem, unless I get a hang of the introduction I cannot continue to read the other chapters!!! Sounds weird? I remembered mamma would always make me write what we read so that it stayed long. So like a good mamma’s child, I have started typing the programs in the listings. It does take long to finish the chapter but it is working!! Just the act of typing in a program seems to help me remember what I have read about it. I decided to get some Dilbert-type exercise – making my fingers humongous! LOL! I jus gotta see how long I will continue to do this.

Coffee: The first peripheral

Some interesting quotes I happened to come across which I strongly concur with!

An English proverb says, “Behind every successful man, is a woman”. And Stephanie Piro says, “Behind every successful woman is a substantial amount of coffee”. Kudos to Stephanie! How witty! :)

And if in case I don't have my cuppa this is what happens to the computer in my brain:
“Caffeine Allocation Error: COFFEE.SYS Not Found: User startup disabled” ;)

I must confess, I’ll die without my daily dose of caffeine. Inexorably addicted! :D:D:D

DRIFT

How many of us are often asked to DRIFT? I mean, DO It Right The First Time! And this is so much so heard all the time in every other meeting at work, re-iterated and re-emphasized! The idea behind DRIFT is that management wants all of the processes that make up the Just in time philosophy to be done correctly and efficiently so that there are no delays in the production process. Now, as I mulled over this, something infinitely worse hit me. How can one be right the first time? How does one know that he is right? Nothing can be right the first time. If it is then it is assumed and asserted to be! If somebody says that something is right and it can be that means he has done it before. If someone has done it before how can it be the first time when I do it? In that case things become simpler when he guides me to do it right when I do it for the first time. Am I making any sense at all?

Hence, one can do it right some time when he has perfected the art to do so. And as we know, practice makes it! Rather, “guided” practice does it. But at the end of it no one is perfect and nothing is perfect. So where are we headed? What are we striving to achieve? One is bound to make mistakes consciously or otherwise. And we all learn from it which leads to the betterment of something that we are currently doing. It’s just that one must not stop trying to do the right thing. And one has to stop considering it a problem! There is no problem so big and so complicated that there is no solution. Even a no solution could be a solution in itself. You just never know until you have tried. Triumph against the overwhelming odds. Just bounce back and achieve what has to be, without worrying about doing it right the “first time”! That is all there is to it. Take time to realize that “PROGRESS” is better than perfection and keep moving. One step above. Each time. Every time. You just have to discipline yourself to work on achieving it. What do you think? Does drifting against DRIFT make any sense at all?

Bits...

... of a travel in the woods.

First showers.
Wet eyes.
cross roads.
Jigsaw puzzle.
A miscellany of odds and ends.
The bridge.
Time of change.
Road less traveled.
Unending journey.