Fly or die...

What if a bird said, "I am acrophobic"????!!!!!

All the while travelling...

I see myself in a labyrinth. Unable to find a way out, running in circles, not knowing which course to take.
Confused and flummoxed, I run down!
With a labyrinth, there is only one choice to be made - to enter or not. Whether or not to walk!
But a choice has been made. I have put my step forward and I am in!
Is it a maze? Is there a way out? Am i trapped? Did I take the right course?
I stand motionless, seeing no where to go.
I hear a voice scream, "No, U ll neva be stuck". Yes, indeed. I know I can find a way out.
There are twists, turns, and blind alleys. Yet, it is unicursal.
I realize, the importance of leaving a mark.
The trail winds in and out for the way in is the way out.
To escape from the labyrinth, you gotta search within and trace the mark.
But am afraid. Will someone change the mark? Leaving me where I am and having no chance to get out?
No, the unknown is known now. Every small step taken with fear, every gasp while I ran, every drop of sweat that got me in here will actually guide me back!

Slow it down a bit...

Everything seems plain and earthly. There is sunshine and its turning all green. Its a good feeling and I am liking it this way. I want it slow, as slow as possible. I wish I could stop the time from rolling! Can we have everything run in slow motion, please? I wanna pause, rewind and replay.

Why are you hurrying? Don't rush pass me so quickly. Just allow me to live in the moment... and this moment… For ever!

Am I heard?

By-Two Coffee - A dedication to G! :P

‘G’ (privacy requested by the person!! :P:P:P), my friend, had called me on the eve of Valentine’s Day and said she was missing India badly. She was saying that the zeal of celebrating Valentine’s Day isn’t the same as in India and its quite dry there. And she is dying to be here in India. But I explained to her that things ain’t the same here anymore!!Oh between, she is newly wed and is now settled in Connecticut, USA.
She asked me to put up a post on what my idea of feeling the vibe of that day would be, especially in Bangalore!

Okay so, here I have it for you G. Now I don’t really know how much you’ll appreciate this but I being I, see what I have on my mind.

Picture this.

You and him (/her) are ripping along on your kiney( or jus any bike). Suddenly, in classic Bangalore style, the clouds choose to culminate and burst and come pouring down on you. You take refuge by rushing into a near by Darshini. Half drenched and shivering, you order a hot cup of filter coffee and decide to share it -a by-two coffee-while you wait for the rain to stop! As you sip your half cup of steaming coffee you look into your partner's eyes and think to urself "how amazing is this?". And just go ahead and profess your love for him(/her).

God, G, I can see you all ready with rotten tomatoes and eggs to pelt me!! I am running for cover. Bachhaaaaaooo....... Saaaaaaaaaaaavvvve meeeeeeeee…………..

Seriously, coffee is a drink that makes you lose your senses for a while and say WOW ! Okay I know.. We are talking about love - Loving to share. So why not do it with coffee? It’s the best way to show how to love, share and appreciate it. Coffee is not just a normal drink but its about fantasy, escape and passion.

Well, on behalf of every Bangalorean who's ever been in this situation, I'd like to tell you, "It's pretty damn amazing. Simply enjoy maadi!"

Okay G, this post is dedicated to you!!LOL. I can’t stop laughing!! Listen, I can’t help it. I just can’t get enough of rain and coffee. If you are bugged with it, please excuse me!! ;)

Probe the problem

Alright.. I have a task for u..Ask me a question which involves me to choose... Go ahead... just anything that you want me to decide upon. Okay, wait! Before I take your question, I have an open statement. There is a good chance of me not giving an answer. I might always refuse to answer. I would be like, " Err... hmmm... but... well... aaahhh.. Ughhh??.. and..what if.. if not.. else.. so on and so forth". I stumble to choose among a set of alternatives in light of their possible consequences. Blame it on the frontal lobe of my brain. My mind often goes into an infinite loop, processing the conditional statements.

Most often, when faced with such a thing, we go by intuition, which might or might not be the right thing to do. We sometimes tend to think straight from the head but sometimes from the heart. Now, when should we put our head ahead of the heart and when should we put the heart ahead of our head is a serious question!! And as a result of this serious problem of indecisiveness we tend to fail and err. Acceptable (or is it not?), totally! And there are good chances that people label (which they are doing best at), as biased. And when things don't go according to the decision made we blame it on our good old 'DESTINY'. We say it was a mistake! The most difficult thing to do in life is "TO CHOOSE". A choice can make all the difference. A protracted decision is only one part of the process of choosing. We make decisions in the fear of making the wrong decisions and there we trip and fail. Its an unusual phobia, do you see that?!!

Anyways, do our mistakes matter at all? Okay, okay... We are humans and are fallible. Agreed! And failure is the stepping stone to success! Innit?? The measure of success is not whether you have a tough decision to deal with, but whether it's the same decision you had before. A good old proverb says, "Decide like a man of action; implement like a man of thought". It does not take much strength to decide what to do, but it requires great strength to do things.

Now we could argue that if a mistake does not lead to a failure, then it is not of any importance - we may not even know we've made an error. Our fallibility is compounded when we lack experience, don't have the right information, misunderstand, or if we are careless, tired or under time pressure. All these factors affect our ability to make sensible decisions - our brains either don't have the information or cannot process it quickly enough. Additionally, we are more likely to make errors when dealing wit perplexing problems and complex processes. It could be anything -personal or technical or even business related. This is coz, I think, our brains are wired to deal wit a reasonable amount of complexity or change. When asked to deal wit more our brains may not process the information we have correctly. Well, am not making it a general statement. It could be otherwise and I shall not be surprised. But at least MY MIND CANNOT TAKE IT!! So, is it okay to fail? Or is there a compulsion to succeed?

QLC

A lil bit of excitement, a lil bit of nervousness. A lil bit of this and that. A lil bit of just everything. In fact lots! Well you must be wondering what’s wrong with me to be writing like this and about what. Oh well, last week(last month) I happened to celebrate my ‘silver jubilee’ birthday! Oh o…. if you are smart and have got to know my age, then please don’t be smart to declare it to everyone.. Ssssssshhhhhh.. it’s meant to be a secret and am just 18 given any day… “18 till I die. Yo!”. Alright? LOL.

I sat down and reminisced about the week that had been. Oh well, so what’s so special about it? I got older. Am not too sure if I think I got old but people certainly do! A day that has come for years. I felt it to be a lil insignificant(blame it on my age!! :P). But I am a lil confused(as always), if am old or I can still continue to be young. But even if I do, people around(God help them! Do something to their memory. Let them forget my age!), have a problem. “Ohhh.. U r 25. So, terms and conditions apply. You SHOULD be doing this and that. Oh, you SHOULDN’T be doin this, you are not a kid anymore”. I hate being said not to do what I want to do! Annoying! Worse time it is for me coz am still single! ‘Ohh, its high time you get married’ (What bloody problem am I causing them by being a spinster uh?)! Irritating. I just cant tend to ignore their snide remarks. Well, its another thing that I look old (I’ ll do something about that. May be learn how to apply make up right or may be get real thin!! Howzzat? Listen up, it needs a bit of an effort. Hence, am praying hard- “God, jus one time phullleeeej.. Make me Kareena-zero-size-kapoor thin!! Just once!!” Hehehe. [wink]).

On the other hand, I end up working late till in the evening. Pressure is mounting up from everywhere. There is some kinda guilt that I haven’t achieved anything in life while most people across the world my age are par beyond excellence and are going places. I have an urge to do something that satisfies me and kills the quest! But am jus way too behind. Lot needs to be done but do I have enough time? I have been nit picking too much insisting on perfection. It’s a miserable feeling.

There is a famous saying, “Wine and women get only better by time”. I am not too sure about the wine part as I don’t drink but women.. hmm… Oh really? I wish… I don’t see any signs.. I am growing to be the silliest kid on the block! (Did I jus say KID?hehehe) . Can I seek help from somewhere? But where? Quarter life crisis!!! I am neck deep in it. It’s hit me hard. And am sure you have guessed that. Smart you! But hope I'm not alone. Tell me, please, that I'm not. But the truth is I spend far too much of my days wondering how I will cope with these crisis moments.
But never the less, it was a day of small joys. It was a pleasant day with no-fuss what so ever. I was on the phone for 25 hours long!!! I quietly liked the attention I got all day. I just let myself be! I just would like to thank all the people who made it the most beautiful day. I hope I can bring you some of this happiness back. I hope I am worth it.

From within.. or Out!

It is the end of life when you break open the egg from outside.
But it is the beginning of a new life when it breaks open from within!

You have a choice!