Bamboozled!

In reticent times, u realize that the ones you consider close aren’t actually close. The ones u consider as the best aren’t the best. You realize that you were not kept in the loop when something important happened in their lives. When they considered you the most at all times and when, once upon a time, the vice-versa was also true, you still expect to be there with that person in all walks of life! Is that too much to expect? There is a seed of potential hope that is laid when you promise your consciousness that the other person is gonna stay with you for a lifetime or accompany you in the journey of life, which of course only time decides. Does that mean we are taking “friends” for granted? It hurts and hurts big time when you get to know that a close confidant of yours has hidden something from you or has been doing something without your knowledge though it was decided that he/she would do it or you would be a part of it and nothing was confirmed yet. You plan things together. But when actually the plans get converted to actions you are not part of it. Well you may not have asked for your share but you at least do expect to be a part of your friend’s experience. Don’t you? Is that too much to have asked? How fair is it on your friend’s part to have buried it? Well, in another point of view, it’s only but natural to share, to confide in you when the other person is comfortable doing so. But yet, when you do get a hint that you are somewhere being neglected and being avoided spurts in the sense of insecurity. That’s the worst emotional turmoil one can go through. Dilapidated! You just lose trust and faith in the other person. Not only in the other person but also in the camaraderie. Don’t you? But it’s not that they are deceits or have wanted to betray you. It has just happened and you don’t really know why. You are being left out! For no reason. And it’s just as simple as that. It doesn’t seek an interrogation or an explanation but yet you still do wanna seek justification!!!! I don’t even think I can allow things to take its course. I can neither hand it over to the choice of zestiny. I have to do something about it. But I don’t really know what to do in such a case. Do u? I am flummoxed... In search of an answer. Can you help?