QLC

A lil bit of excitement, a lil bit of nervousness. A lil bit of this and that. A lil bit of just everything. In fact lots! Well you must be wondering what’s wrong with me to be writing like this and about what. Oh well, last week(last month) I happened to celebrate my ‘silver jubilee’ birthday! Oh o…. if you are smart and have got to know my age, then please don’t be smart to declare it to everyone.. Ssssssshhhhhh.. it’s meant to be a secret and am just 18 given any day… “18 till I die. Yo!”. Alright? LOL.

I sat down and reminisced about the week that had been. Oh well, so what’s so special about it? I got older. Am not too sure if I think I got old but people certainly do! A day that has come for years. I felt it to be a lil insignificant(blame it on my age!! :P). But I am a lil confused(as always), if am old or I can still continue to be young. But even if I do, people around(God help them! Do something to their memory. Let them forget my age!), have a problem. “Ohhh.. U r 25. So, terms and conditions apply. You SHOULD be doing this and that. Oh, you SHOULDN’T be doin this, you are not a kid anymore”. I hate being said not to do what I want to do! Annoying! Worse time it is for me coz am still single! ‘Ohh, its high time you get married’ (What bloody problem am I causing them by being a spinster uh?)! Irritating. I just cant tend to ignore their snide remarks. Well, its another thing that I look old (I’ ll do something about that. May be learn how to apply make up right or may be get real thin!! Howzzat? Listen up, it needs a bit of an effort. Hence, am praying hard- “God, jus one time phullleeeej.. Make me Kareena-zero-size-kapoor thin!! Just once!!” Hehehe. [wink]).

On the other hand, I end up working late till in the evening. Pressure is mounting up from everywhere. There is some kinda guilt that I haven’t achieved anything in life while most people across the world my age are par beyond excellence and are going places. I have an urge to do something that satisfies me and kills the quest! But am jus way too behind. Lot needs to be done but do I have enough time? I have been nit picking too much insisting on perfection. It’s a miserable feeling.

There is a famous saying, “Wine and women get only better by time”. I am not too sure about the wine part as I don’t drink but women.. hmm… Oh really? I wish… I don’t see any signs.. I am growing to be the silliest kid on the block! (Did I jus say KID?hehehe) . Can I seek help from somewhere? But where? Quarter life crisis!!! I am neck deep in it. It’s hit me hard. And am sure you have guessed that. Smart you! But hope I'm not alone. Tell me, please, that I'm not. But the truth is I spend far too much of my days wondering how I will cope with these crisis moments.
But never the less, it was a day of small joys. It was a pleasant day with no-fuss what so ever. I was on the phone for 25 hours long!!! I quietly liked the attention I got all day. I just let myself be! I just would like to thank all the people who made it the most beautiful day. I hope I can bring you some of this happiness back. I hope I am worth it.