<< Re-wind

My mind is always under a flux of random unrelated thoughts and of what-if scenarios. They are sometimes so intense that either I have beads of sweat on my forehead or it is hot to touch. Perhaps if my brain were to be a circuit board, it would burn! It is so difficult to quiet my mind. I just can’t rest or put myself to sleep. Guess what, I have tried different types of meditation to stop my mind from thinking soooooo much (wasteful thinking mostly!). I wish it were more constructive and I could put it to good use. I have tried to cultivate and channelize it but much to my dismay, I am always out of patience!

I have had and continue to have ‘déjà vu’ moments that are absolutely indescribable. Perhaps no body will ever understand, believe me or take me seriously if I told them. I hate to make a fool of my self doing so because people consider me a clown already! Or on another note the person standing next to me is feeling the same thing or one of you feels this way too. I have no clue for nobody has ever told me anything of that sort. The feeling is so surreal and strange that sometimes I gotta pinch myself to get back to moving from the frozen state of déjà vu! It’s phenomenal. Especially when it comes to the eerie feeling of “I-have-met/seen-this–person-somewhere-before” or the famous “I-have-been-in-this-situation/place-before”!! God help me. My PP has given up on me already!

Speaking of Déjà vu, PP suggested to watch the Denzel Washington (he is my favourite. Love his deep baritone voice) starrer, time travel thriller movie ‘Déjà vu and I did. After all this, I had to. Though it doesn’t seem possible, I was still pushing for a “Why-not?” thought process. In the process, I thought, if only God gave me a chance to re-live a period or pick a dead person to bring back to life, then it should be my chweeeet granny. I mostly account what I am today to her. She was a versatile genius and perhaps if she ever had a chance to graduate from college, she would have ruled the world. I salute her. I have seen no one like her and will neva see one like her too I guess. She was a strong woman, silent but there is nothing that she didn’t know. Even at the age of 84 she was fit like a 12 year old. Her enthusiasm and curiosity was contagious as was her humility. A lot of them could benefit from her. Am yet to see a person like my Doddajji. I’ll consider myself lucky even if I am ten per cent like her.

Anyways, coming back to what I was thinking, it would be unfair that God just gave me a chance. Perhaps, everybody on this earth must be given such a chance. And then I thought, what a mess the world will become if the evil people wanted there evil successors back!! Uff… It’s hard to imagine what more shall happen to the already dreadful ongoings on planet earth. We don’t have a suitable planet yet to take refuge too!! Perhaps, the world will end sooner that it must!! 2012, if it must? Nayyyyy. Who knows!? GOSH, crazy isn’t it?

Alright, I have two questions for you.
Tell me,
1. Have you experienced déjà vu?
2. If you were given a boon to bring one person back to life, who would it be and why?